I need a place to write some shit into existence. I know no one reads this on purpose but I feel like if I write some stuff down that I want to do/work on/change/become it might be more real. I have these thoughts everyday...
*have a *more* structured plan for the kids during the day ( less tv )
*eat clean 90% of the time (one cheat meal a week)
*get up before the kids @5:45 to meditate & pray
*start the c25k
*work out 4 days a week at the gym (zumba 2, pump 2)
*work out at home of can't make it to the gym
*do yoga with Violet
*lose 50 pounds before the end of the year
*make a denim quilt
I'm so tired of thinking about these everyday and doing nothing about them. I have had such a rough time since Mom died. I have completely let myself go and I'm almost up to 190 pounds and my body hurts. I think I'm having inflammation problems from poor diet. I'm going to pull myself together and honor my mother in a better way, by honoring myself. I deserve better from myself and my family deserves a better me.
Tomorrow I'll write a more detailed plan for reaching these goals.
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